Hedging my bet

I walked in rivers 
With depth above my head to drown 
I walked barefooted on hot coal on the hottest day 

I crossed the Sahara 
With no water to quench my thirst 
I climbed Everest with no oxygen mask 

I spread my wing span, and from lift off 
They were ravished with holes, the size to shock 
And threatened to hold hostage my flight 

My balance took me close to insanity 
Shifting back and forth 
From ecstasy to trepidation 

To walk I built the right muscles 
To hedge my bet on what to call 
My own to have, with value I render 

So forgive me, if I am to lose my sanity going barmy 
On account of,  your debauchery of corruption  
For I hedged my bet and walked backwards 

In rivers, barefoot on coals, with broken wings  
To put value on what I call my own 
Yes my own I toiled for this much my own 

DO NOT AWAKEN MY DARKENED SIDE,
 FRIEND, I AM ON THE EDGE!!! 
THE EDGE OF NO RETURN 

How deep is that rabbit hole

You know, simple says  
Tomorrow is another day 
After all, tomorrow is just another day

Some decisions are easy to make 
Based on instinct of reaction 
A yes, a no, simple to the answer  

Next question, then another  
I am good at this, no hold backs  
Without the need to pause, lament on ponder 

Simple says, confidence is at its highest heights 
When one is not being tested against the odds 
I am that good, with ease over obstacle paths 

Before a sudden halt in momentum 
Abrupt ends, stops forced upon one. 
No entry or regress in rabbit holes trapped

On test tracks, screech stop, emergency breaks 
Redundant keys to passage path ways  
Wonder lands, is that you Alice?   

When decisions come into their own element 
And throw doubt in every option given 
Faced down by the bull with intent to act

Who stands, who crumbles 
Who throws white towels in and signs on  
To the asylum house, stress break as last cards 

Monday always brings to focus, in focus 
Decisions put on hold, the weekend brought escape 
Monday always feel like a new start with apprehension  

And yet for every one of those days, simple says 
We make it, past lines of  interference shields drawn 
Simple says it best, when confident is at it height 

But who has that height 
When caught deep in the rabbit hole 
Simple says, life is just that, not so simple, "funny that"