My Family Tree

I am a product of my family tree 
Long from the roots, but yet so near  

With branches that spread 
And swings in the winds  

I am warm and friendly 
I am as cold as ice, dead men have humour  

A complex conundrum 
A joy to the shrink when I visit 

Then he is left confused 
After my visit, needing to unthink 

I am rigid, hard as a bone I would not bend 
I am soft, squishy as a sponge 

I am free spirited, free as a bird 
Nothing you say would bother me 

I am so self conscious 
Looking from mirrors reflection seeing blemish 

Don't blame me 
I am a product of my family tree 

The wind blows my branches 
And I swing with the winds 

Calm Waters

Patience is not having 
The peace of mind and calmness 

In still waters, like buddha 
In a mountain retreat somewhere 

Away from the chaos of life 
That is just being privilege 

It is trying to have the peace of mind  
With blood pressure, up in rough waters 

It is holding back so hard with sweat  
So you do not go crazy.. on self doubt 

In-between that 
Talking to one's self out loud  

Edging one's self in third person 
To calm down, stay calm  

While walking on hot coal 
Did I miss a point on 

Feeding off my bones

Feeding off my bones 
My ambitions 

#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions 

Some are still feeding off my bones  
They say it is juicy so they 

Go on sucking my bone marrow 
We changed faces, like season 

Lovers came and went in different sizes 
Colour coded in area codes to suit 

My face got fatter and slimmer 
In one given season, renewal  

Then I found angels 
Angels with wings in my prayers 

#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions 

Travellers named me a regular 
On the road less travelled 

I stayed around, longer than most 
Yea, I know these roads my neighbourhood 

Each brick 
And the marks on them 

Who made them 
Gone are a few, forgotten faces 


#\So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions  

My mind plays games on me sometimes 
Like the story is without me in chapters 

I came close, many a times 
And I lost track of reasons  

Still with strong faith in the religion 
We were born this way, go figure

We breathe in and out 
And it is all with our dreams and ambitions  


#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions  

Hold on now, not so quick 
Wait until tomorrow and tell me how it all went down 

I can not take my focus of these roads 
They change like the sand dunes in the Sahara 

And we still travelling, a foot forward 
Though it feels like forever 

When we look back  
It seems we have made progress 

#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions  

So who is counting 
Ask him to look at our worth in consideration 

Mixed feelings 
Personality change and I switch 

Back and forth arrows in rushed pages 
When I am in that mood, stay away, it takes a while 

We only human, blood that boils  
Counting down on our ambitions  

#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions 

Tell family I would be late coming home 
This night, something came up 

You know how it is 
Some are still feeding off my bones 

I pray my heart 
Stays strong, for the journey 

I fear I am changing again
They feeding off my bone marrow again 

It is my ambition eating me alive 
But  it is all just for the cause 

God bless , I know I am blessed 
I know I am 

#So find me a reason 
#Different from my understanding 
#It is, what it is I see when I look up 
#That is my calling, my dreams and ambitions  

Trotro stories #13 who is free

Economics is like what you can afford
How deep is your pocket to sing songs 

So when a woman with four kids
Boards a public transport 

Some amount of adjustment and calculations 
Will have to be made to get things moving 

For five to become two 
She would only pay for two her pocket size 

How deep is your pocket 
Be the judge if in a position to pay 

Or forever keep yours shut 
Life is not fair, that is just life 

But we all have to make due 
On travelling roads 

Tell me who is free 
She is a "mother" oh mother 

Lady luck

What happens to the gate keeper
If he looses the key 

Do we queue in wait 
Hoping he would find his senses 

And remember where he was 
Last standing before amnesia 

What happens to the time line 
As credit on a given mark 

To be honoured before 
The close of day by this day 

Do we put up tents, burning old firewood 
And camp for the night 

Hoping lady luck 
Would show her face and honour 

Honour our patience 
With accolades reciting stories of our deeds 

I found love in the middle of a storm 
And this was a price worth paying 

Something borrowed 
A heart that was once captured 

Something blue, as blue 
Something new, as new 

A six pence in your shoe 
I found love in the old woods 

Where we laid our tent 
And forgot we planted fruitful trees 

Forget about the gate keeper 
Forget about him loosing the keys 

We found another way in 
Lady luck came dressed as love 

Blowing her flute 
She opened doors with her breeze 

Unloading weights

I sense a weight being lifted  
On my chest away from me 

I have carried these sacks 
For so long on my shoulders 

Dragging on the floor 
As a part of me 

Sworn into my skin  
Attached like birth mark  

I have carried these weight 
For so long 

Like the badges worn by 
The army officer 

And on this day 
They just came off , dead skin 

Like the day of retirement  
For the General  

Hanging his uniform 
And weighted badges for good 

To do away with
The burden of  yesterday